Waiting is over - we move forward

It would be silly to think that one month of the "tea" was going to work, but my heart is silly a times. This month was challenging, interesting, at times miserable and did not bring about conception. So, we move on. Romans 15:13 says "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit". It is not easy to remain hopeful, but I try my best and seek the Lord's strength when the sadness tries to overcome me.

The only thing I can tell you for SURE the tea did for me this month was a) gross me out every time I drank it, and b) cause my face to break out so bad I look like a 13 year old going through puberty! Man oh man it is terrible!!! Nothing I do clears up my face and it's really gross!!! I am so careful with my face....I NEVER go to bed with makeup on and when I come home from work everyday, one of the very first things I do is wash the makeup off my face. So you can imagine how traumatic it seems for me to feel so out of control with this!!! I took a few days off from the "tea" as I got closer to the end of this cycle just to test out whether that was the actual cause or if it could possibly just be from stress. Well the face started clearing up so I know its the tea.

I know that I can let go of my vanity enough to suffer through some terrible skin condition for a time if the end result is conception, which is the ultimate goal anyway. But, just to be sure that I'm not having some type of harmful reaction to the tea, I've brought it up AGAIN to the doctor to make sure he is comfortable with me continuing on the tea. I will not enjoy having skin issues on my face but if it is a unpleasant side effect that I must endure in order to conceive, well then I will just apologize now for how I must look. =)